I wanted to be worried, afraid, and angry. Where had Adam gone? Was he okay? But instead I sat in the big living room chair at 2:30 in the morning and reminded myself “I know who I am. I know what I am. I know how I serve. I am here. I am here. I am here. I am in my knowing.”
Shortly before, I had awakened with a start to the smell of burnt popcorn. Who would pop and burn popcorn in the middle of the night? I had gotten up and walked around our apartment in Hong Kong seeking the culprit. No one. Then I remembered - the other time this had happened Adam had left in the middle of the night depressed and contemplating self-harm. Now it had happened again. So I immediately checked his room. He was gone. Gone from his room and our apartment. No note. No indication of when or if he intended to return.
I Knew then that my sixteen year old son was troubled about something and needed love and support, not fear and anger. I decided to tap into a calming energy, something still quite new to me. Then I got the idea to leave a note on the door with as loving and concerned a tone as I could. I asked him to wake me when he got back from wherever he had gone.
Since reading a few of Paul Selig’s channeled books, the rise in my frequency had unlocked what I would come to learn is clair-alience (clear-smell). I was developing smells associated with various people I loved.
A long hour-and-a-half later, (still only half asleep), I heard the door and then felt a quick tap on my arm and he was gone.
In the morning, a kind message suddenly appeared on my bed with a short explanation and apology. Adam had had a disturbing dream and had gone for a walk in our safe neighborhood to process it before being able to go back to sleep.
Over the following months this scene would replay in various ways, each time I would be awakened by burnt popcorn and realise my son was hurting and in need of loving energy. I was able to navigate some of the darkest nights of being a parent in a way not possible before experiencing The Guides attunements to higher vibration, “I know who I am. I know what I am. I know how I serve. I am here. I am here. I am here.”
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